I can’t tell if I’m lazy or tired. I can’t tell if I’m the source of the problem, or if forces beyond my control are holding me back and limiting me.
Every day, it’s a challenge of positive thinking and trying vs. very real exhaustion and pain, plus limited financial resources.
Today’s the day my 2016 taxes were supposed to be done in order to comply with the law and get my refund.
Well, I missed that deadline. Despite working on my taxes with great intent since December.
…Is it my old nemesis, Laziness?
…Is it my “You’re not the boss of me!” reactionary thinking?
Today’s spoon theory above is contrasting with the, “Achievers do this” meme, below:
While I know I’m willing to embrace change and fail in order to make progress in my life, I’m finding I have zip for “staying power”. While I do accept full responsibility for my behavior, what does that mean in the bigger picture of my exhaustion causing me very real dollars in terms of handling my responsibilities?
No idea at this point, but since I’m sitting here writing a blog instead of getting on with life, I’m voting for some sort of laziness and ennui bolstering my very real exhaustion as demonstrated by the spoon theory / battery life poster:
When you’re on vacation, there are distractions to keep your adrenaline pumping and driving you to keep up. At home? When I’m chilled and trying to find my motivation? Nope.
Today has now become a new chance to clean up an old mess or failure.