I knew I was losing my mind when I seriously considered “mealenders” as a solution to my diabetes woes.
Background: the lawyer is making me crazy with his / their latest version of a declaration, and while I do have a short lifespan, I don’t want to spend my final days in the pen for killing him (lawyer) or her (paralegal).
I have been having trouble sleeping as I’ve been trying fasting as a way to control my blood sugar
I am still ticked at the endo deciding my issue was portion control and over-eating vs. understanding that I eat normally – 2,000 or less calories a day (usually about 1,800 calories or 600 calories per meal – at a rate of 2-3 meals per day).
Being unable to sleep, though, because hunger pangs either keep me from falling asleep, or keep me awake once I’m in bed, is extremely aggravating. And that’s before we consider the 5,001 pee breaks necessitated by all the water I’m downing to try and keep my belly from hurting.
Add in declarative b.s. statements from my lawyer, corrected multiple times, yet receiving each fresh draft with whole paragraphs of falsehoods that I’ve never seen before, increases my anxiety and hunger.
Plus, the continued delay for building my new sun porch is getting on my last nerve.
While I’m trying to be good as I’m seeing my endocrinologist later this week, the levels of constant frustration for the months of July and August are NOT helping me find and keep my balance.
So, I’ve started the 2017 “Crafting for Sanity” tour.
Right now, I’m into rehabbing Goodwill items into a variety of bird feeders in the hope that something will click at our upcoming show.
While the ugliest bracelet I’ve ever made (the concept DIDN’T match the finished product) sold at our most recent show, I’m just feeling drained and whiney. Very whineeeeeyyyyyyy.
I can hear the clock of my life ticking, and it’s getting on my last nerve. Time to get busy to drown it out !
Here’s hoping I have some sales this weekend to make my open defiance of the lawyer’s edicts worthwhile.
I can manage my own luggage.
I can drive my car.
I do need lots of breaks and naps.
I am diabled, and not bedridden !