Or, enduring while continuing to find a way to live vs. merely exist.
I found the attached image on the web under “free” images, with a note that it “may” be under copyright. Alrighty then… Since we can’t be sure, I’ll use it as a placeholder until the rightful owner objects.
Now, back to the topic at hand…
In my case, I just got in from doing the “forbidden” lawn mowing. The weeds and scrub were about 4-6 inches long, very green and pretty, but clearly nearing the point where they had to be trimmed, or I run the risk of the weed abatement committee or the landlord fining me.
I say lawn mowing is forbidden, or ill advised, because it wipes out my energy. EVERYTHING with COPD wipes out energy, so I’ve become like some sort of energy-gobbling crazy children’s video game, doing something and then sitting for 15 minutes to an hour until my energy reserves refill.
A typical morning includes an hour to three spent trying to clear my lungs of mucus, so that I can breathe better and have more energy to take a shower AND shave vs. just a slap dash washing of hair / rinsing of skin. Nothing much happens, though, until I can get my breath and not sound like Darth Vader while simply sitting still.
Taking a shower? Add 10 minutes rest.
Taking a shower and shaving my legs? Add resting while in the shower, wasting water, plus another 30-60 minutes sitting around, “drying off”, while practicing biofeedback and deep breathing exercises.
The biggest challenge I have with the COPD diagnosis, is that it’s an invisible disability, so I can appear lazy or unmotivated, and be assumed to be “cheating” the system of benefits when I’m doing something physical like mowing the lawn. It’s a guilt trip challenge, merely trying to live and trying to keep to a somewhat normal routine, with regular chores, despite anything but “normal” circumstances. Sitting around “recharging” falls clearly into that “big, fat, faker” category for cheating on being “truly ill”.
No answers here, however, my 30 minutes of rest are up so now I’m headng to the YMCA to see if I can get in some necessary arm stretches on their weight lifting equipment before swimming or using the jacuzzi prior to coming home.
I could really use a nap right about now, but my goal today is to keep on trying to move despite the depleted energy reserves. Hopefully, I’ll make it for more than 20 minutes in the pool for swimming today.